My Month: January 2012

January was a good start to 2012. The biggest event was definitely my first exams of university, which I passed! It's been quite a relaxing month - Seeing friends, spending time with my family, sorting myself out for a new year, reading much more and finally making a start on things that I've wanted to do for a while. I have come to my senses about spending money unnecessarily, become more appreciative of the things and people that are back home, and I have also started to eat much better.

      The only low points of this month was the stressful revision, the feeling of being left out and the feeling of failure after I left one of my exams. Of course all of these are nothing too overly important and so therefore nothing worth dwelling on.

I have learnt that I underestimate my intelligence - As my Mother Bear says 'Well then you narna, all that worrying. I do love you and you need to have more faith in yourself'. I have also realised that I have to surround myself with people that are also intelligent and acquire common sense. I'm not one to stand for people that come out with the dumbest things and genuinely mean them. I hate feeling as if my iq level is slowly decreasing whilst sat with somebody that talks as if they've never branched away from 'ths kynd ov ritin'. This isn't at all directed as an insult, just an observation of what keeps my mind at ease.

My favourite part of January was finding out my exam results and finding out that I did much, much better than I thought I had in both of them. I came out of the Biology exam and I was instantly in tears feeling as if I did so badly. I did the worst thing when I arrived back to the flat too, I looked through my lecture notes and saw how much I had done wrong. Since that day I felt very stressed and down through the weeks leading up to my results. To discover I received nearly a first in an exam that I thought I failed in was amazing.

My goals for February are to work hard at university, stay up to date with my work, continue eating reasonably (I like junk food and Nando's too much!) healthy and to start organising myself properly now I am back into a routine. I have no fixed plans and so therefore anything could happen!

"I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter" - Walt Disney